1 more day

I've always hated cutting off my fringe. Exposing my forehead makes me feel naked.

Will be back on 17th Feb.

49 Days

This has got to be saddest drama I've ever watched. 

Made me think, will there be anybody who will actually shed true tears for me if I am in a similar situation? Are there anybody in my life now who I will shed tears for? Will I find somebody who I love so much that I would be a Scheduler for 5 years just to meet once?

It's scary how I've thought of death. Not in the feel-like-committing-suicide-manner. Rather I'm afraid that people I know meeting with mishaps and stuff like that. And I'm afraid that I'll die while serving NS.

33 years ago...

My Dad was telling me to pack ridiculous stuff for NS. Top two spots has got to be toilet paper and a kettle.

My brother was laughing his head off and said "If you don't talk nobody will know you are stupid" then my Mum almost fell off the bed laughing.

No more photos in the next 2 years

CNY Pains

“今年考PSLE/ O Levels/ A Levels啊？”，“几时去当兵啊？”，“有没有女朋友/男朋友啊？”，“几时要结婚啊？”，“几时要生孩子啊？”. That's like standard questions I hear every CNY. Put it on repeat for like 5 people.

Ah, this Saturday will happen again when my parents' friends come to 拜年.

Then my 大姨 super cute, she said “哇，你变帅了，是不是因为没有读书，学别人变到酱hiao？” I swear only middle-aged women finds me 帅.

I've been eating like nobody's business. Cos usually the first place I go when I 拜年 is the place where the hongbaos are at then will be cookies area. I will try one of each then slowly eat the one I like best. Like a pro. By the time I enlist I won't be able to move more than 50 steps already.




等你的好消息 却等不到半点安慰的话语

只有你 满脸的嫌弃

等你的好消息 在等也没有半滴温柔残余

我开始不再相信 童话中天荒地老的约定

Awkward Rotting Phase

Not a student anymore. 

Not in NS yet.

Not working. 

Nothing. Just nua-ing. Makes me miss school. Yah, me missing school. Shit just got serious. 

My Dad has been encouraging me to get a part-time job. He suggested me to be the F&N boy. I think I won't be able to hold out for even a day. Carrying those cartons of drinks will make me become closer to the ground. 

I think I need to start running/jogging soon. Lol, I actually tried to jog last week. At first I was planning to run like 6 rounds of 400m, which according to my brother is actually only 200+m, but I shall assume that it's 400m. During the first round I was "Haha, I'm still quite okay" But then... After the first round, I decided that I shall just finish 3 rounds, then slowly increase from there each day. Like a loser. And from that day onward I didn't run anymore. Sigh. Just eating all the CNY cookies and stuff. Doesn't help when my Dad made cookies over the weekends.

I'm not really looking forward to CNY this year. Usually I'll be, cause it'll be a school holiday. But this year after CNY I'll be enlisting . It could actually be a good thing cause I'll not be so free and have no idea what to do with my life. But I'm the kind of person who is rather resistant to change.

There's also the usual CNY 拜年 thing where relatives will be asking all kinds of standard questions, which I've already thought of. This year my parents are inviting their dancing friends over for a CNY gathering since 10 years ago. Good for them to meet up with their old friends and socialise a bit. Sometimes I feel that they spend all their time on my brother and I that they don't have their own life. It's like everything they are doing is for both of us. So I've been telling them to do things for themselves. Like maybe go on a holiday by themselves.

Ah, I've been ranting and rambling non-stop.

無事生非

墙壁上 那钟摆

依然滞留在那天

久回忆 一刀未剪 轮回着上演

Be Grateful

What screws us most in life is the picture in our head of how it is supposed to be.

花花世界

多简单 盛就盛开 败就败 不用计算

只为自己而精彩 自然而然

LIFE'S UNFAIR!